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Wednesday, January 20, 2010
to " You " This post specially typed for " you " as you know, the recent happenings and what not. Thanks to that, I Feel that i have lost you. I don't know why. When they say u jealous someone. you got feelings for them. i cannot tell if i have feelings for you. but i can tell i get jealous when you are with other boys. believe me i know. however i know i cannot be your man. so i just keep it on a down low .. but now, due to all the recent things. i feel sad. i have lost you. everytime i see i a " -.- " or a " zzz " from you. i just get a weird feeling. i don't really like that. that's one of the main reasons i don't use " -.- " alot or at all. i just cannot help it. i think i like you but i cannot be sure. thinking of you just pains me greatly. not thinking about you makes me miss you dearly. i beg the heavens above to release me from this pain. but now even the heavens above cannot do anything. at all. for i have lost everything that i hold dear to me. saddening enough, i cried in school today. that's a first my dear. never before have i cried in school. i'm sorry to my friends who have seen the weak and dulan side of me. " you " remember when i gave you the " -.- " face after you told me bye? there were tears in there. oh yeah .. i couldn't even cry when alicia broke with me. but now i don't know why, after u said it, it just hurt. hurt really bad. right now as you read. i'm bleeding .. profusely .. non-stop .. like my heart was stabbed and stabbed again ... curse that knife .. this post makes me sound like a weak person but now... i just want to express myself to you... because...*sigh* T_T ... for tomorrow, Happy 14th Anniversary my Dear. every night i toss and turn in my bed. mad thoughts racing though my head. A little dosage of love is all i need. you are the source of all my greed. before i die i hope this ends soon. cos i might just bang my head on the wall of my room. |
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